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Name: Derek
Country: United States
State: North Dakota
Metro: cando
Birthday: 7/20/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: Well as of late I've been spending entirly too much time on the guitar, but hey it's what I do alright. Other than that I like to snowboard, snowmobile, golf, n jam on the drums.
Expertise: Hittin shit on the drums!, Snowboarding, and workin on the guitar
Occupation: I farm, wada you gonna do
Message: message me
AIM:  drj2oo7@aol.com
MSN: dr_j20_07@msn.com
Member Since:
12/4/2003
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| When irony struck!
Oh how I've missed it
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| So there I was realizing I had neglected xanga for quite some time. So I quickly relogged into the site that has taken from me more years of my life than most things. I have been doing this Xanga thing for a little over 4 years now. Thats quite some time ago.
So as I read my last post it said freshman year was about to come to and end, shit that came and went something like 4 months ago.. The summer started the same as any time away from school usually does with a plane ticket to Seattle.. Seriously I don't think I've spent more than 3 consecutive days in Cando since I graduated and I would bet a large sum of money on the fact that the 3 days I did spend there weren't because I wanted to.
Seattle this time around wasn't quite the same, the big city novelty that engrossed me all of last year never really came. 4:45am came around every morning as it always has, and every building, bridge, and turn on the way to work became same shit different day before it even got exciting. The real world did bear its ugly face at least one time during the summer though, it was a few weeks into the summer I got transfered to a job in downtown Seattle which is 40miles from my house. Now I was driving my uncles jeep that made something like 15 mpg and once you get to work, you pay $9 for a days parking. It didn't take long for me to realize I was spending $150/week or $600/month just to get to work.. This in itself was enough to send me looking for a different job, but the thought of what if i had to pay rent, and buy groceries and pay for internet and other things, set in hard an really made me realize what living in an area like that can really cost..
Another thing that didn't take me long to learn was how to be responsible for myself.. Turns out getting up at 4:45 in the AM means you better be in bed at 10 or you're going to have a long day that turnss into a long week really fast. Last year by some miracle ( and lots and lots of redbull) i managed to go to bed at 1am pretty much every night and still drag my ass up for work by 5.
Not to say that I didn't have any fun over the summer... I managed to go out quite often. I made a few new friends and hung out with some old ones. I got into a few bars, and managed to get kicked out of even more. There are a few nights that i don't remember but the ones I do more than make up for it.
But what I did realize throughout the summer was, like I had said before, the novelty and adventure has long since wore off. But, on the other hand, it really started to feel like home, there were a couple of times where on my way home i would get lost because I had made all of these turns without even looking at the street signs.. only to realize i was exactly where i needed to be. I've become closer to my neighbors than I am with most of my family, and I really wouldn't have it any other way.
I'm interested to see whats going to happen in the next few years, I'm pretty sure that I am going to remain in ND for the remainder of my 4 year degree.. but recently I have been doing a lot of thinking as to what I'm going to do after that, Law School is and has been my goal for quite some time, but as to where I'm not sure.. I will definitely apply to the UND law school. But I'm thinking I will apply for the University of Washington (no matter the cost) or who knows.. maybe another part of the country completely to start an whole new adventure.
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| So here it is, the end of freshmen year is well in site. But all that aside I have recently come to the realization that I am going to miss highschool. To say this is incredibly weird to me. If you ask anyone who's anyone that's talked to me on the matter, they will positively tell you that I hated high school. I mean really, 100% loathed the 4 years spent in Cando High School. So I think I more miss how it could have been and have come to see how much I have missed out on and knowing I've passed a point of no turning back. Chances are I'll never play another game of full pads football, or play on a basketball team. And, even though I never really did much for sports while in high school I always had the choice. Now, for the first time in my life, a life in which doors are always opening, beckoning for me to step through, doors have started to close. The word never is coming into play more and more with each passing year, and to be honest that scares me. With that in mind, I can already see the next point, the next step in my life that I can go up knowing I can't go back. And, that is at the end of college, only 3 short years away, after that even more doors close and the list of things I probably will not be able to do will continue to grow. After college, theres a good chance I won't attend any proms or formals; the chances of me playing any organized, competetive sports decreases even more; and choosing not go to work some day because I just don't fucking feel like it also goes out the window. So maybe I'm over reacting on this matter, actually there is a damn good chance that I am. But at the same time, I'm already starting to see the doors close and it scares me to see more and more of them start to follow suit. But oh well, here's to living life as best you can and not regretting any of it. | | |
| So it all started like sophomore year of high school. When all of a sudden time shifted gears into way too fast. I mean for fucks sake sophomore year was 3 years ago already. But, yeah its seems like time has been passing faster and faster with no sign of slowing down. I remember thinking that my golden birthday would never come, and here it is in a few months. I'll be 20, my brother will be 23, and some of our friends are starting to get a glimps of 30. So yeah, freshman year of college is all but over. And as bad as I want it to be summer, with the end of freshman year in West West nation comes the end of chilling in the commons till 2, filling someones bathroom waist deep in TP, BPL, Volley Ball, random Smash and Mario Kart 64, and any other random activities that come with a floor full of bored guys. I've complained about the dorms enough for probably 3 people, but thinking back it was probably one of the funnest times I've seen. So thanks to everyone from West West Nation that made this year bad ass. We did this shit right. | | |
| Ok now that I got that off of my chest, along with $10 out of my wallet. March Maddness is officially over, I'm a little sad. So it would appear that I am continueing to suck at life. Don't get me wrong, everything's starting to work out, but at the same time, everything is starting to work out... right now... as I'm buying plane tickets to leave. Nice! The End | | |
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